Vacay? What's That?
Today is the first official day of my vacation. Some of you may or may not know that my day job is in holistic animal medicine working for Spirit Essences, owned by Jackson Galaxy. In all my years there, I've not taken a proper vacation. In fact, I don't think I ever have taken a proper vacation in any job I've had! Taking the artist route, it's often rare to secure a job with all the bells and whistles. As the company I work for has grown, I now have some bells: vacation!! So as the year comes to an end, I needed to "use it or lose it!"
Last night we had our office Christmas Party/bon vacation.
It was nice, warm, fuzzy, and when I got home, I felt so grateful, so happy about the evening, the party, everyone being there, the decorations, all of it. However, I knew that I was only able to feel all of this and enjoy the moment because the next day (today) was the start of my vacation. I didn't have to think about work, my to do list, who I had to call, deadlines, meetings, emails... I could just be. It made me a bit sad to think I could've missed these warm and fuzzy feelings if I was back on auto pilot, on to the next thing, the next day, the next to do.
So on my first vacay morning, I assumed I would be able to sleep in...WRONG! My meow-clock went off and I was up early as usual. But that's okay, Cumin's got to eat, right?
The interesting thing is that as I went through the day, I felt a little bit lost. From choosing what I wear (I didn't have to look polished because no one but Toast and Cumin would have to see me today), to what I would have for breakfast (I didn't have to pack my special smoothie for lunch and I could take as long as I wanted to eat breakfast and not eat on the go!) , and then to the million dollar question: "what am I going to do today?"
As I was deciding what to do with my day, I was shocked by how much work thoughts tried to rob my brain space. But as the day went on, thoughts of work faded into the background. It's amazing to me how much work consumes me and how very little space is left for Me. I guess that's why you take vacations...to find the Self that gets lost in work, so that you can actually do your Real Work again.
Tomorrow, instead of asking what I'm going to do today, I'm going to ask, "what am I going to be today?"